So, more and more I feel these emotions out of nowhere. Like the urge to cry, a feeling of heaviness, and now this anticipation.

I don’t know what I am anticipating, but I feel like it’s going to be a change. And it makes me nervous. I mean, my life is completely, in God’s hands…which is what makes me nervous. He likes to make examples out of people and do crazy ‘move you across the world and work harvesting figs’ stuff with people. But he also likes to do ‘let me introduce you into a whole new understanding of my love for all people’ stuff.

So, I accept whatever is happening. Praise God for warning. Heh.

later.