Boy oh boy. What a ridiculous time this is. Within weeks I crack around the edges at my job, had a (hilariously) one-sided fall out with a friend, and lost my mind with church leadership. How did I get so broken? What a ridiculous time. What a ridiculous time.

What is so wrong with me that I do these things? I can’t. I can’t. There is so much wrong with the way I’ve handled things lately. And there’s no one I trust enough to process this through with me. Pathetic.

Yet, I can ask for forgiveness, and be forgiven. I can enter His presence, and be welcomed. How pathetic. I am as a deserter but am received as a ruler.

Lord, help me.